Let it Begin

I was at Bunco this evening and a few of us were talking about blogs and the constant need we feel to always measure ourselves (subconsciously of course) against all of these words that our friends and family members put on their blogs. And while it is wonderful to journal the great things in our lives it is no one's intention to exhibit this pretense that their life is the pinnacle of perfection. Dashboard says it best when they say "I am flawed" We are all flawed and it is our fault that we measure ourselves against others. I am the worst one. I don't usually like to share certain things on blogs, things of a personal nature but I feel very hopeful that someone might read this and possibly allow this song to aid them in their trials. I have been struggling with something lately and its difficult to not feel abandoned and overlooked for blessings. I was comforted and humbled this evening as I read my friend, Julie Yardley's post on Facebook. She is this gorgeous, amazing wife, mother, friend, daughter, aunt, etc. Julie and I share a few nephews and a niece as she is my brother-in-law's little sister. She also has the brightest future as an LDS Music artist. She is fantastic. She has a new song out on a cd at Deseret book,

Women of Hope. So I went into Itunes to see if I could download it and I couldn't but I could download "Let it Begin" This song is beautiful. Musicality alone it's genius, but then listen to it further and you will be amazed at how it hits home so well. I mean the first words to the song are "You might think that no one knows what you're going through" It was absolutely inspired that I sat down tonight and listened to it and I have felt well, less than inspired the last year or so. But I keep learning the same lessons over and over again. And as cliche as it sounds "Life is what you make it". It doesn't matter what you're going through. The atonement allows us to give our trials and our mistakes over to someone else...someone who can handle them. That's an amazing concept. We have to ask that they are taken, but they are taken without any addendum or crazy stipulations. When we are struggling we have to make the choice to turn it over and let our brother, Jesus Christ take it from here. I think that usually I always use the atonement with mistakes I've made. That's what we learn, right? This is I guess one time that I am consciously using the atonement to comfort me in a trial I am experiencing, not that I have never used it that way, but more I am being reminded to use it for that purpose. The fact that he has felt exactly what I have felt is comforting. Because it's someone who knows.

Singing my way through life as I have the past 27 years, makes you a crazed lunatic that has to find a song to relate to while in certain afflictions. I guess this is mine for this one. I have never heard anything that has spoken so clearly to me in my life. So thank you to my sister for marrying Marc who is the brother of Julie. Thank you to Paul and Karen Rose for creating an amazing daughter who continually stays close to the spirit so that I can be inspired to buy her music, and today thank you to my Father in Heaven and brother Jesus Christ for knowing me so perfectly and allowing me to be inspired by beautiful music and lyrics.

...the healing starts within, just let him in, and let it begin.